My salvation has arrived meaning my date with my second doctor for my second opinion. I was so excited, nervous and overwhelmed. It was a big day for me wanting answers for why all these things were happening after the fact. It's funny we think doctors are the intelligent people who have all the answers to fix us, but in reality they art just scientists reading medical journals and treating us like test dummies to see what works and what doesn't. It is annoying, but that is the reality of it. If I have to hear well everyone is different and we are not sure why these things happen I swear to god I will throw something. Then my main oncologist is like, Linda I'm sorry that you are going thru this, but I can perscribe you something for your anger, Really!!!!