Updated: Jun 11, 2020
Dear Coronavirus aka Covid-19,
I had enough and this relationship is over. It is time for me to move on and to find myself once again. Thank you for all the lessons that you shared with me, but I am ready to re-connect with my friends and to have a much needed lunch date while the kids are at school, since that is my only free time where I can get an hour to myself and maybe have that beer or cocktail if needed while the girl talk takes my stress away before the 3pm bell rings and my mom duties come calling once again.
It was amazing to have all this bonding time to really get to know one another and man, I leaned that my middle school kids are lazy and really need to be forced to do anything. I yelled the whole first few weeks and then realized why I am stressing...........if they want to repeat 6th, 7th and 8th grade that is there prerogative!
I wish it was that simple. I wish I was that laid back as a parent, but the neurotic side of me got the best of me and I understood that this is a trying time for all of us, not just dad and I. I talked to them and we got on the same page and we learned that we like to do things when we like to do them. Meaning, the kids now sleep all day and up all night, but the work gets done. Am I doing some of it for them, yes, but that makes me feel connected to them and I need to feel included, because really they don't need me or pretend to not need me, either way it hurts.
School is coming to an end and I am so excited for summer...........WTF! Seriously, 3 months to do nothing and listen to them play Fortnite and yell................yes, go me. I am thankful that I have a job where I work from home and can enjoy all of this, because I cherish every moment....................not. If there was an adult summer camp, I would sign up. I love my kids and I am very hands on and right now I am just venting, but seriously I had enough Coronavirus.
I miss my little errand trips where I drove around and run in and out of stores just to window shop to get away from my yelling kids and to break up my work day and now I can't, because it is easier for me just to stay in my little bubble of living in Linda's world.
Every time I step outside and venture to the food store it's a nightmare for me. Mask or not it is a constant reminder of what we are living through right now and its such a sad time for all of us. I had enough!